Anxiety

This week I am feeling a little anxious. On Friday I go in for my first quarterly post-treatment scan. The scan itself is not all that big of a deal, I have done plenty of scans and x-rays over the past six months. It is the anxiety of the results - which I will not get until the following Wednesday.

Overall, I am feeling great. I am working out more, I am eating better, I am spending time with family and friends, and work is going well. The only thing weighing on me is this darn scan.

Now I am quite sure that things will be fine, that the results will show a clean lung area, and I have nothing to worry about. But there are times when that little seed of doubt can flair up and get a person thinking way too much - and that happens sometimes with me.

So, the prayers for the week are two-fold: one is a prayer for a clean scan. The second one is a prayer for peace in my soul. I have to continually remind myself that every step I take, I am taking with God.